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My grandma quietly left this world at 3:05am....in the presence of all of us, and after finally hearing Ron's voice, even if it was on the phone, she peacefully went. I noticed her breathing pattern was off a little, and wasn't aware of it entirely until Roldan pointed it out that each breath was first 6 seconds apart, then 8, then 10....and then.....she left. At first there was a stillness in the room....and then grandpa reached over to her.....and that was it.....tears cascaded down my cheeks, and soon began to flow heavily. My knees became weak, and had it not been for Roldan holding me I would've been on the floor....It's still a bit of a shock, that we're going to be living life without Nanay physically here with us.....
she won't see us all grow and mature.....
she won't see Raen and Chot, and now Ria go through their troublesome teenage years.....
she won't see them go through girlfriends and boyfriends.....
she won't be a my wedding  .....
she won't be there the days that I have my children to tell me and Roldan that luckily the kids aren't too dark....
she won't be there to see Ron get out of the Marine Corps finally this summer and become a doctor....
she won't be there to see RJ graduate High School and join the military himself....
she won't be here physically for any of that....
all i can hope for is that she's there.....watching over all of us...... I love you Nay.
"I just wanna say....that i'm thankful for having you in my life. I wanna say thank you - I just wanna say...I wanna say thank you...for being in my life. I wanna say thank you, I love you, and I miss you. I just wanna say thank you, I love you, and I miss you."
".....all i know is your not here to say....what you always used to say.....but its written in the sky tonight. So I won't give up. Not I won't break down - sooner than it seems life, turns around. And I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong. When I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe.....SOMEONE'S WATCHING OVER ME."
I LOVE YOU NANAY.
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